Time Stood Still * for a second *

6 months - august 10, 2008 !! :)this is where the title of this blog comes in ! :)
Time Froze ! .. i completed 6 months in australia, (a country i always wanted to visit) yeah! thats right, VISIT ! i didn't know i'd be STAYING here for 6 months, and another 12 months to come! i so didn't know, but SOMEONE knew !! and that 'someone' brought me here 6 months baq !!
where's mum? where's dad? where's grandma? where's sam? where are my uncles? where are my aunts? where are my cousins? where are all those i LOVE ?? where? the answer's simple, isn't it ? what would you say if i asked you those questions? wouldn't you say, they are all in India, at home?.. "HOME" yeah? and thats what i MISS here ! i have a house- i don't have a home! :( & now i've realised the importance of family-love-care-concern-affection-joy-sadness-troubles-PRAYER !!
i've learnt so much here! stayin alone teaches you everythin.. well, it taught me! i was quite useless at home!.. there have been times i've been the laziest girl in this whole wide world ! and when i say laziest- i mean LAZIEST !! .. but now? what have i not done on my own! well, all because my Saviour Lives in me ! he's always around me! [Psalm 91 :)]
that night when time froze.. he was ALL i thought of!.. :) yes, he IS my everythin !!and for that ONE SECOND..( ref title !).. i said the quickest 'thank -you' prayer ever ! and i know HE heard it ! :) well, why wouldn't he!.. :) after all.. In Christ Alone, My Hope is Found !! *** :)

My first Love.. (definitely for a lifetime!)

December 2007: around 22nd of the month: ..

Sam was leavin the family for 5 months.. and me for more than one and a half years!

did i see it

coming?.. i think i did.. but not this early in life..

he packed his stuff the previous night.. mum was after his blood.. saying "sam you r so disorganised... is this how you would keep you stuff on the ship?".. yes! a ship! thats whr he was off to!.. and to name it.. Maersk Kowloon! He had grown up! from the fattest baby ever, to this rough and tough guy..who'd come up in life just because someone watched him from up above..

it was morning! i was in bed, but awake.. they said a word of prayer.. and mum said, "joy get up! sam's going".. naa, i dint get up!.. sam came to me.. knelt down.. held my hand and i almost squished his hand.. and he said (in his typically cracking tone).."joy, im going.. all the best.. rem'mbr we're united in heart, always!".. he kissed me and left..

for a moment, i did not believe it!.. did he really go?.. or wuz i dreamin? somethin told me i needed to get up and go and look outside.. mum stood there crying, granny stood there praying! and me? i was just there.. no emotions! yeah he was gone! the same boy who had struggled thru life.. was going on his first sail ever! in my heart of hearts.. i was rejoicing! nothing better could have happened to him!.. i wished he came back in a day or two.. well well, reality struck! he was gone! he waved from the car.. and showed a thumbs-up!

he's always been this strong guy! and i cant do without him!!..

and look at this guy now.. (you see the picture?).. thats him , in germany! im sure he did not ever dream of touching a H-A-R-L-E-Y!! yes, thats him! all happy and smiling!.. and safe under God's Protection!.. 27th may 2008.. he got back home!.. says he's put on weight and all.. but naa.. he's lean and thin, thats wot mum told me!.. i spoke to him.. and heard him after 3.5 months! happiness filled my heart.. and tears of joy ran down my cheeks! was i happy or what!.. missed him awfully.. but one thing i know.. he's there for me! .. i have his emails from the ship!..memory for a lifetime!.. thank god for technology! MISS YOU SAMMY BOY.. (thats what i've nicknamed him on gtalk!).. like you say, sam.. "we're united in heart!".. *huggss*..

.. and i was finally on board- singapore airlines!

i do re-collect.. it was 10th feb 2008!

MIXED EMOTIONS.. and nothing else!

life was gooing to change a full circle!

it would start all over again.. and jus as i expected.. the day nvr went any faster.. before i even knew it, the black square clock in my room struck 8pm.. dad said, "c'mon, lock all your stuff.. take your backpack... mum's makin something.. eat quickly.. we have to leave".... it felt like he wanted me to go away.... while chewing on some paratha and chicken curry i realised what he would be going thru! it still din strike me ... ! australia was calling! nope! still dint sink in!..

just before i stepped outta my home, he hugged me, i cried.. granny hugged me, i cried.. and mum hugged me.. i still cried !! where was my brother? sailing in the high seas! he had seen the world alrdy and now it was my turn.. and he said to me, long long back.. "joy (yes, thats what i am called at home!) .. if i can go, im sure you can go too!.. certainly encouraged me.. if my li'l bro could go away from family into a foreign land.. what was stopping me?.. or worrying me for that matter?!.. we carried my bags!.. into the cellar.. put it into the car.. and started for the international airport.. (my first time ever!!).. my bestest friend was therre waiting for me at the airport.. he said he'd come to see me off.. after all we'd spent a real long time (yes, a real long time) together.. and i could'nt have left wiithout seeing him!.. he was there, and got a trolly for me.. he looked at me, and i looked at him and.. we smiled! now that we were at the airport.. it was time for me to 'check in'.. even tho i dint wanna! i dint have a choice either.. it was 10th feb.. and i had to leave, for brisbane bells were ringing!.. the luggage was thru (thank goodness i took off the extra blanket.. otherwise i'd have had to open the suitcases and take out stuff to be within 40kgs! phew).. it was around 9pm.. i jus knew i would have to leave them all and go away.. go faar faaar away!.. i wanted to spend as many minutes as i could with the three of them! they were there right thru immigration.. and finally my dad said, "joy, yu better go before it gets crowded"...! and he hugged me again..mum and me hugged and cried.. she could read my face.. it said "i dont wanna go!"... well, well, it was this decision i made!.. my friend who came stood with my parents.. and i waved at him.. turned and went into immigration! got thru that as well.. and walked into lounge after wavin the 'last goodbye'.. little did i know my folks were still waiting in the car.. and they would leave only when i was boardin the flight..! millions of phone calls.. friends, family.. and all those who meant so much to me! never did i have so many 'calls waiting' on my mobile! phew! and thankfully the battery dint give up!.. it still wasnt sinking in that i was going away! i have no idea why i couldn't believe it..! i spoke to all my friends, their families.. everyone wished me luck and couldn't believe i was going away! a difficult moment for each one, in their own way.. however, i was going away! announcement to board! finally..! singapore airlines was calling me! i stood up from my chair.. i was on call with the same friend who came all d way to see me off.. sms's all over the place.. "miss you.. love you".. and the words!!!.. well, i just couldn't have stayed back.. i was going away.. to a different country.. i walked thru the aero-bridge.. and entered the aircraft..! those singaporean airhostesses looked absolutely stunning! it impressed me, but i looonged for atleast one loved one with me! naaa.. for some reason, i still dint believe it.. as i came to my seat number, i asked one airhostess to help my with my backpack!.. i sat in my seat.. and noticed some wierdo sitting next to me! i dint know.. gettin a visa was THAT easy..! hmph!.. i was sending my last 10paisa sms to my friend when the airhostess came to me and said, "mam', can v have your cellphone swtiched off?"... broke my heart.. into a million peices.. slowly started sinkin in.. i was going away.. the seatbelts were fastened, the video display was put on.. and emergency exits were noted.. and the breathing aparatus was explained.. well, well, it soon would be taking off.. i heard the rumble of the engine.. and felt the slight bump .. realised the huuuugggeeee aircraft was moving! was i really going away.. ? my hands were itching to put on the cellphone and a few more sms's.. but it sure was too late! .... before i even knew it.. singapore airlines- took off !

they made the get together totally worth it..!

Date: 22nd Jan 2008.. Sunday

Place: Chung-Hua

Time: 1 in the afternoon!

Who: (From left- Ritika, Khushboo, Harsha, Myself, Parinitha & Upneet)

For: Lunch..

Why?: because I was leavin for Australia and i wudnt see them in about 2yrs!.. (or maybe more, who knows!)

it was but natural and i caught up with these ladies in my life!..and guess what, these working women finally spared time for me, and made it possible!..

i was there.. on time!.. called each on of them.. and you know these girls..sayin.. "yea, im on the way yaaa, will b there soon"... sheeesh! like they jus kept me waiting!!!.. ggirls, i tell you!.. heheehe...

khushboo arrived in this bright pink thing.. she made me smile..! (i'd miss her for sure).. upneet came next, on her worth more than a million kinetic nova.. (i'd miss her too, i've known her for half of her life!..)... harsha came in.. after sometime.. we hugged and all (yeah, met her after ages.. the first time, actually, after we'd graduated..).. we sat and talked and talked.. madam parinitha finally landed up ... actually hey guy delayed the poor girl..! (bad boy!).. hmm... and madamoiselle ritika was somewhr lost!.. like she dint find the place!!.. upneet and me went down so that she could spot us near the restaurant.. well, well, she finally zoomed in on her priceless bike (sure is an artifact!.. lol.. however you spell that!).... now that we were all in the restaurant.. guess what struck all of us?.. three of us in pink and three in brown!.. i mean, talk of co-incidence!!!.. phew!.. girls girls girls!!.. (honestly, i dunno wot i'd have done without them!.. {sigh!!}).. we ordered a whole heap of food..!..talked and hogged, hogged and talked..!.. what else could you expect when 6 irls were in one place!!!.. at one table!.. .. we wanted to try upi's favourite fried ice-cream.. but for some reason it wasnt available!.. so we settled for some plain strawberry and chocolate icecream!.. the guy who took the order was throughly confused, cuz we all spoke at the same time!.. hmm.. the master photographer- upneet took heaps of pics inside the hotel.. and all of us took more than heaps outside the hotel, like just outside the door!!!.. others couldnt open the door, lol... cuz we stood right there.. cuz we loooooooooooved the bright red and gold background..of the door!.. i knew we had to depart.. time was ticking!.. everyone had to get home.. pari's guy wouldnt have spared her otherwise.. khushboo's parents would get mad, so would harsha's.. upi ritika and me had no worries,... cuz we'd been galavanting all thru college life!.. we all went down, obviously, after poolin in for the bill.. everyone hugged me.. (Thank God i dint cry..!.. like i was jus acting brave, yu know!!).. we said bye to each others.. and for some reason, khushboo and me hugged and din say a word!.. did we know departing would be so difficult?.. khushboo looked into my eyes and said.. "Rebecca, can we meet one last time next weekend?".. i dint think twice.. and i said.. "sure thing"..! i could give up anythin to see her.. !..after all.. she copied notes from me in fine day!!.. hehehee.. (.. i miss her..!!!).. upi and me got onto her bike!.. yeah.. it sure was a bike !!.. *Grriiiinnnnnnnn*... and ritika and pari on ritika's bike... and we raced, lol.. screamin at each other..! and what not, like the world would've thought we were insane!!!.. (doubts?!.. LOL).. reached home.. and stood at our favourite spot- right outside a vet's shop!.. lol.. and chat chat chat and chat!.. like it was endless...!!!!..finally had to say goodbye!.. my heart was sinkin.. i was leavin in 2 weeks.. my throat felt choked.. but i cudnt do much!.. said bye bye to ritz and upi.. and headed home..!.. miss them so bad.... well, well, im reminded of this thought...which says.. "meeting and parting is the way of life, but parting and meeting is the hope of life... "...

i'm sure we're all living with that hope, that we'd meet.. definitely meet... and be friends for days to come!!.. (i mean, forever!!)

...(and i did meet khushboo the next weekend.. and what made it better.. we bumped in harsha too!) *wink*