My first Love.. (definitely for a lifetime!)

December 2007: around 22nd of the month: ..

Sam was leavin the family for 5 months.. and me for more than one and a half years!

did i see it

coming?.. i think i did.. but not this early in life..

he packed his stuff the previous night.. mum was after his blood.. saying "sam you r so disorganised... is this how you would keep you stuff on the ship?".. yes! a ship! thats whr he was off to!.. and to name it.. Maersk Kowloon! He had grown up! from the fattest baby ever, to this rough and tough guy..who'd come up in life just because someone watched him from up above..

it was morning! i was in bed, but awake.. they said a word of prayer.. and mum said, "joy get up! sam's going".. naa, i dint get up!.. sam came to me.. knelt down.. held my hand and i almost squished his hand.. and he said (in his typically cracking tone).."joy, im going.. all the best.. rem'mbr we're united in heart, always!".. he kissed me and left..

for a moment, i did not believe it!.. did he really go?.. or wuz i dreamin? somethin told me i needed to get up and go and look outside.. mum stood there crying, granny stood there praying! and me? i was just there.. no emotions! yeah he was gone! the same boy who had struggled thru life.. was going on his first sail ever! in my heart of hearts.. i was rejoicing! nothing better could have happened to him!.. i wished he came back in a day or two.. well well, reality struck! he was gone! he waved from the car.. and showed a thumbs-up!

he's always been this strong guy! and i cant do without him!!..

and look at this guy now.. (you see the picture?).. thats him , in germany! im sure he did not ever dream of touching a H-A-R-L-E-Y!! yes, thats him! all happy and smiling!.. and safe under God's Protection!.. 27th may 2008.. he got back home!.. says he's put on weight and all.. but naa.. he's lean and thin, thats wot mum told me!.. i spoke to him.. and heard him after 3.5 months! happiness filled my heart.. and tears of joy ran down my cheeks! was i happy or what!.. missed him awfully.. but one thing i know.. he's there for me! .. i have his emails from the ship!..memory for a lifetime!.. thank god for technology! MISS YOU SAMMY BOY.. (thats what i've nicknamed him on gtalk!).. like you say, sam.. "we're united in heart!".. *huggss*..